There are times…

There are times in life you do what you believe is right so that others can grow, only to have it bite you in the butt in the end. But in the end it doesn’t really matter, because others have grown closer to God and the kingdom of God is advanced! Yea God!

Visionaries have always been neglected, frustrated, and ridiculed. I once had a billionaire scoff at me to my face when I asked him if he could make a major festival free (after he asked what they should be doing different, nonetheless). Note that he didn’t fund the festival. I just asked him to get creative and do it. And rather than acknowledging the power of our God he treated me like I was an idiot. Now, 4 years later the festival is now free. I haven’t gotten an apology and never will. And that’s ok. I don’t want one. I just want people to take me seriously when I tell them we can change the world if they listen to and work with me.

It is a thankless, frustrating position to constantly be 2-10 years ahead of Christian organizations when your heart is to lead the way, not follow and you can’t always be in contact with people who will help you make it happen.

The visions will be accomplished one way or another. I am not unique. God gives the same visions to other people. But there are many skills that God gives uniquely. No one else could dunk like Jordan. No one else could play guitar like Jimi Hendrix. It is when the intersection of a vision and those skills meet that something truly beautiful can happen. There may be a window of opportunity for these type of visions. Maybe I’m wrong. I don’t know about that.

Ultimately, it’s only the relationships that matter anyway. But still, my heart is to show the world the incredible forward-thinkingness of Christ and the quality inherent in their Creator!

This post is for me. I just needed to vent.

God bless you!!

Already a great day!

I got woke up by a call from Mike Kramer today. Great talking to him!!! Then God helped me find my Bible, then I got a call from Bob Ranfranz about helping to move Margie at noon. Already a cool day!!! 🙂

New Season

I’m entering a new season of my life. I no longer care about this world. About what “it” thinks. I care about Jesus. Pure and period. I don’t care if I ever get married or ever have a relationship again. I truly don’t. I sacrifice everything and lay it all down at the feet of my Savior who loves me SO much. I care about nothing less. And I’m excited to see where Jesus takes me. He’s going to pay off all of my debt in 1 fell swoop. He’s going to set me free to minister to others, to care about people more than myself, and to be completely free to be the servant I so desire to be.

I care about NOTHING else.


Is going sweet. Matt Eidem has 1 more guitar solo and then we’re on to my vocals. Then it’s all done except the mix! So far it has been a great experience!